[02:03.00]I'm no longer f**kin' amused
[02:03.00]I mean I addressed this sh*t on"Cut You Loose"
[02:03.00]How long am I supposed to stick around for this f**kin' abuse?
[02:03.00]Every time I go to leave, I figure"f**k is the use?"
[02:03.00]I endure it for the true fans that covet that new
[02:03.00]Or is that just another f**kin' excuse?
[02:03.00]Do I do it for attention cause I crave it, I won't mention it, I'll save it
[02:03.00]If you know me than you know a ni**a treasure anonymity
[02:03.00]Ni**a thought that as a man, you must be kiddin' me
[02:03.00]And I'm starting to feel like my fans are now condemning me
[02:03.00]Listen, I don't owe y'all sh*t
[02:03.00]Same Joe I am today is the same Joe y'all get
[02:03.00]Y'all will interrupt a ni**a while he at his place of worship
[02:03.00]And think that came along with your 20 dollar purchase
[02:03.00]You bought the music, not the ni**a that made it
[02:03.00]But let me touch up on that ni**a that made it
[02:03.00]If you're judging me on actions then I'll take that L every time
[02:03.00]If you conclude"Joe Budden is a corny mah'f**ker"
[02:03.00]Cause all it mean if I'm a corny mah'f**ker
[02:03.00]Is the greatest rapper ever's just a corny mah'f**ker
[02:03.00]My bad, I'm not as street as you
[02:03.00]But all this time I was being me, not being you
[02:03.00]I get behind that mic, let all my demons through
[02:03.00]Without knowing sh*t about the people that I'm speaking to
[02:03.00]Add that to me not seeing a reason to
[02:03.00]And that says a lot in a room full of silence, listen...
[02:03.00]At 21 I had a ** problem
[02:03.00]At 31 still **s is a problem
[02:03.00]But the thing about that pill is it made everything real
[02:03.00]And I felt I needed to see
[02:03.00]Funny thing about it all, I ain't like what I saw
[02:03.00]Now the Lord's voice is in my head like
[02:03.00]"You'll be DEAD soon for questioning me"
[02:03.00]Another lesson for me
[02:03.00]Far greater than whatever I profess it to be
[02:03.00]Cause if left to me, I'd put our eyes in our brains
[02:03.00]We'd over-think what we see and our whole lives would change
[02:03.00]But f**k it, that day had to come
[02:03.00]Who ever knew that I would have a son?
[02:03.00]I coulda guessed it, I was f**kin' like a rabbit
[02:03.00]But I never saw him handle scoliosis like his dad did
[02:03.00]Never knew me and Ronnie would talk again
[02:03.00]F**k a rhyme, I'm just happy that we talk again
[02:03.00]Who knew that the second I acknowledged you
[02:03.00]You would get terminally ill, be in the hospital
[02:03.00]The thought of you leaving is what f**ks with me
[02:03.00]I'm scared to death of getting full custody
[02:03.00]Ni**a, I look in the mirror disgustedly
[02:03.00]So how am I supposed to feel the day that he looks up to me?
[02:03.00]I always said you were the worst baby-mother
[02:03.00]I had ex-girl confused with baby-mother
[02:03.00]And there lies my problem with our Creator
[02:03.00]All the times I wanted her black a** dead, you wouldn't take her
[02:03.00]Don't do it now, I need her
[02:03.00]Understand, it don't get no realer
[02:03.00]See how I go to bed with thoughts of a damn killer
[02:03.00]But rather show y'all my girl through these Instagram filters
[02:03.00]Look at her, don't look at me
[02:03.00]Cause if y'all judging, y'all would throw the book at me
[02:03.00]Speakin' of shorty, nah, I'll do that in private
[02:03.00]It might be a little soon for me to let her know how I get
[02:03.00]Sh*t, and now we right back at one
[02:03.00]Real quick, let me get back to my son
[02:03.00]When a ni**a was like…
[02:03.00]
[02:03.00]He said"Dad, I'm weird… but I don't have a problem with that"
[02:03.00]And I was like… I laughed, and I was like
[02:03.00]"Well, number 1, why do you think you're weird
[02:03.00]And number 2, why don't you have a problem with that?"
[02:03.00]And he looked me in my eyes and he was like…
[02:03.00]"Well, I say I'm weird, number 1, because I know I'm weird
[02:03.00]And I don't have a problem with it because that's me
[02:03.00]And whoever don't like it, they don't have to be around me
[02:03.00]I'm comfortable with me and who I am"
[02:03.00]
[02:03.00]And right there, that was cold
[02:03.00]In my head I thought"That was bold"
[02:03.00]Illest sh*t about it all, said that at 10 years-old
[02:03.00]So I could die right now…
[02:03.00]I could die right now and feel like he got the most important part of Joe
[02:03.00]Or... better than that...
[02:03.00]I could die right now and feel like he know all he need to know
[02:03.00]Joey