[05:09.00]I think about dying a lot
[05:09.00]Whether it's me, my dad, my mum, Andrea, Finn
[05:09.00]Or anyone else
[05:09.00]I think about it a lot
[05:09.00]I don't know how to love myself in a way
[05:09.00]That is authentic to the way I love living
[05:09.00]In spite of life's flaws, the pain and grief with on a daily basis
[05:09.00]I love being alive
[05:09.00]At least I tell myself that
[05:09.00]And I have to believe it
[05:09.00]And I do
[05:09.00](Thank you for listening to a love so shy)
[05:09.00]Will I look up to the person that I am now when I'm old?
[05:09.00]Will I understand my hurting, bad decisions and my flaws?
[05:09.00]Is the person in 2064 still alive?
[05:09.00]And by that I mean on the inside, not just someone yet to die
[05:09.00]Did he turn out to be the one?
[05:09.00]Or am I still in denial?
[05:09.00]Is there a happy ending or
[05:09.00]Do things just keep on going?
[05:09.00]Is it fair to assume he's happy, at least?
[05:09.00]I hope to god I leave this planet before him
[05:09.00]I will leave a piece of me
[05:09.00]Inside of everyone I meet
[05:09.00]I can't love sustainably
[05:09.00]I'll have nothing left for me
[05:09.00]I'm twentyfive and clambering
[05:09.00]This quarter-life's been a lot to live
[05:09.00]And I can't see what's happening
[05:09.00]Can't believe what's happening
[05:09.00]I'm twentyfive and pandering
[05:09.00]To a hopeless lack of discipline
[05:09.00]Vicious cycles tow the line
[05:09.00]Can't believe I'm twentyfive
[05:09.00]Can't deny I'm terrified
[05:09.00]I've been seeing other people just to try and fill the void
[05:09.00]Moved to London 'cos where my dad lives, things are harder to avoid
[05:09.00]I make coffee for a living, and I have no money left
[05:09.00]But I'm almost 2 years sober, and I cry a little less
[05:09.00]My sister's seeing someone else
[05:09.00]Me and Joe and Soph don't talk
[05:09.00]But Andrew, Tom and Alasdair love me
[05:09.00]So I don't mind at all
[05:09.00]I still think of you at night and wish I had somebody to tell me you're okay but
[05:09.00]I feel bad asking Lola every now and then after not having spoken at all, really
[05:09.00]I will leave a piece of me
[05:09.00]Inside of everyone I meet
[05:09.00]I can't love sustainably
[05:09.00]I'll have nothing left for me
[05:09.00]I'm twentyfive and clambering
[05:09.00]This quarter-life's been a lot to live
[05:09.00]And I can't see what's happening
[05:09.00]Can't believe what's happening
[05:09.00]I'm twentyfive and pandering
[05:09.00]To a hopeless lack of discipline
[05:09.00]Vicious cycles tow the line
[05:09.00]Can't believe I'm twentyfive
[05:09.00]I'm twentyfive and clambering
[05:09.00]This quarter-life's been a lot to live
[05:09.00]And I can't see what's happening
[05:09.00]Can't believe what's happening
[05:09.00]I'm twentyfive and pandering
[05:09.00]To a hopeless lack of discipline
[05:09.00]Vicious cycles tow the line
[05:09.00]Can't believe I'm twentyfive
[05:09.00](can't believe I'm twenty five)
[05:09.00](le vent se lève)
[05:09.00](il faut tenter de vivre)
[05:09.00](Happy birthday to you)
[05:09.00](Happy birthday to you)
[05:09.00](Happy birthday dear Cardi)
[05:09.00](Happy birthday to you)